F*ck Cancer

I hesitate writing about this subject, I consider myself to be a fairly private person.  But I'm going to attack this disease from a different angle, this time.  It turns out that after being cancer-free for over two years, it has decided to return.  I don't have a prognosis yet, it's fairly early in the stages ( which is a good thing, no?)
What I can tell you is that the cancer is on/in  my spine.  I am in relatively little pain.  This next week will prove to be quite challenging, as I have many appointments.  Oncologist meeting, as well as the insertion of a port, and lastly the beginning of my chemo treatments.  Ya, I know, a lot to deal with.  Erik has been an absolute rock.  Family and friends have been amazingly supportive.  I'm trying to be positive about this whole thing.  I don't know that I'm quite where I need to be mentally , but I hope to be there fairly soon.  I do know that things like this tend to give you a different perspective on nearly everything.  I try to look at the bigger picture.  I make decisions differently now.  When I have to choose about whether to do house work, or go spend some time outside with the animals, I choose the animals.  I don't think that anyone on their death bed has ever regretted not doing enough house work.  Desserts are meant to be enjoyed, wine to be drunk, and words to be read.  Less TV, and more conversation. There are still a lot of things I need to do in life, and I hope to stick around long enough to accomplish them. Having goals are a good thing.    The only thing that I ask is that people not worry about me.  You can think about me, but not worry about me..I think that's fair.  I will try to keep everyone posted as to my well being.  It is times such as this, when I find these words sooooo encouraging

Please send any and all positive energy my way!!

Love and light to Y'all   xoxo

Good Evening, from Small Wonders