So... it is the Eve of my last Chemo and I have to say I'm pretty geeked to get these things done and over
with. The sooner they're done, the sooner I can start radiation, and THEN, I will be finished. I've been pretty fortunate as far as being able to ride and show. I've missed a few shows, but I've done a few as well, so I really can't complain. Bella and Roo have really taken care of me this season :)
I have to say this round has been incredibly difficult. More so than what I was prepared for. But I've had some amazing people by my side, throughout it all. And I've had some people who should have been there, and they were not. I'm not quite sure why that is, but I've also learned this time around that it's not for me to worry about these people. As Paulo Coelho tells us "When God closes a door, he opens a window".
So, depending on how my scans go next week, I will be able to start planning my hike in Spain. I can pick a date, book my fare, and start to train. I should be gone for about 35 days all told. Nervous, but more excited then anything really. I hope to go late September, early October. It's good to have long term goals, as it gives your life meaning, and to look forward to your future. To step out of your comfort zone, and to be a little "unnerved". To test yourself, to challenge yourself, and to meet people that you normally wouldn't ever consider socializing with. That to me is what it means to "put yourself out there", and while I may not complete my task at hand, I won't ever know unless I try.
Good Evening, from Small Wonders
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